......Chameleon.......

MIRROR :

..The leaves are green , so is the dark brown bark ..
Rain soaked mud down on the earth bares its trail mark…..
… it is invisible to the eye when not spotted carefully
……..Revered for using its colour canopy tactfully !

. We , are better version of the species when we employ our grey cells
True colours are revealed instantly when loopholes are left bare as well

Sometimes obligations ,sometimes need and sometimes habit
….Induces to change the ‘colour’ unconsciously by spirit !

Loss of trust , confidence is the biggest casualty to those for whom we matter most
.Its hard to rebuild the same when we realize the something more precious is lost !


ALICE :

You sound like a nerd ,when you bare or speak such nonsense speech
Half of which you never practice whatever you preach !

Is it an eye- opener or you are tossing a cork screw on your finger ?
…or .is it a daydreaming which boozing leads such feel to linger ?

You sound crude ! Non sense ….. ! how can I ditch ?
Its my good old friend’s friend who is a big time bitch ! …


MIRROR :

Shut up ! its there on your second skin ….. that changes colour like the reptile ….!
…….you never realize until mistake or damage done which you cannot reconcile !!



ALICE :

What if the other person harbours the same and I remain Innocent !
I would loose out when everything is done and if I remain reticent !


MIRROR :

No dear , you don’t loose but win ;
..for the other person doesn’t have the courage to deny the sin !
He/ she remains as the slave ever , to the circumstances and intention
..Never realizes all it makes them lonely with more confusion.!


ALICE :

Dear , would mind your words if at all possible
Be just my good conscience whenever other dumps my plea as inaudible !!


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.......3rd eye.......

Lines lie unstructured
words lie scattered
but thoughts lie focused
....just needed the kick to get worked !

Thoughts are wanderlust
..Moments strewn with memories refuses to live last
…Warmth of two souls shudders the cold ,windy morning
…Dewdrops soaked eyes turns blind to the sun blazing
..Harmless mischief in those tiring hours
.......Binds to long lost pleasure once dabbled in leisure.

Words left unspoken , miffed with subtle nuances of eyes
Never had a chance of reading them which are so gentle and nice

Missed those subtle hints ,casual touch with warmth of mind and heart
When the thirst remained unquenched forever in a cold desert !

Desert has its colour of its own , its depth seems vast
The Oasis is not a relief but a haven to die for unto last .
.....The Mirage seems quivering , frolicking with the hot air
......But the peace along with its calmness is rare .


Could I care less an eye when mine ones are blind
Drenched lips when mine one remains parched
an warm heart when mine remains cold without any shine
How could I afford not to feel cared by something so divine ?

Life is beautiful even if it’s a desert or a garden
… the feel is what it counts when touched by smile or pain .

...WHY...??????

Wondering why we pamper our ego
When alter ego lies uncared in our ‘self’
Why we choose to ignore the inner call
When outside world is no better place .

Awakening seems tough choice
When doing same things in varied kind
Never to say sorry to a disapproving face
Ignore them as they are many steps behind .

Why show off when mind refuses
Complicates matters as many such remains unresolved .
Why feel insecure when cant give cover to our naked lies
Mind remains pure resolute with bewitched conscience.


Why feel dejected when things never turn up the way we want
Why then reject changes that we never initiate
It’s the worst when the mind is closed
Never will have another chance to make the first stroke .

Why dare to re-instate rules, challenge fellow sentiments
When eyesight is myopic like the frog in the well
Why hurt a soul when cannot care for ours
All we do is drag life that is never destined for hell


Questions are endless , keeps mounting more and more
Irony is we wont stop doing unless felt deep inside
Whom we blame – ego or habit ?
Excuses are many , at the end of the day we lie none but self only .


Why sound so pale when achieved not all but enough to recall
There are many who never simply can imagine
Either got lost in mayhem or simply cudnt be humble
Therefore Thank Himself !
For all His mercy and renounce our jealousy !

Grab the piece of earth meant for me
Share the pie which is excess !
Bare the naked truth how ugly may it be
Live a life and let others to live !!

.....Resurrection .....

..." 3 months & 7 days old !.indeed ! arrey U r still a kid !... u seen a toddler who learnt its first step 2 take its own !...U toh will rewrite human evolution ! ..too fast u r man !... slow down !.oderwise ....." ------what ? oder wise what ?

A shock through the spine !!!..Boss quipped as answer .."Listen Sutapa , am resigning next week !!!.U have to oversee the operations until someone takes over "..!
.. Isnt an expectation too much from a toddler ??...

.......JOB BLUES.......

Was wondering what should have been the title of the post cud be ?.. next cubicle fellow asked for the meaning of renunciation ! ...
......dumbfounded mind ended up for the title above !! ..

Weekend call over batchmates / old friends ... how r u ? how is life , job and ???
....JOB = bindaas bandi aab boardroom blondie !!!!..no speculation /no hesitation ......but a firm note .... " interpret the data-dump from SAP / forex turnover data CONVINCINGLY ..even its a false ".. Be CONFIDENT !

....LIFE = maast ek daam ! ..! shopping/tripping/cribbing/complaining/dreaming/cooking/reading/thinking......
......SMILING w/o reason ! huh ?!!so much to do .how do u manage time ! ..
....Timepass ke liye time nahi ....! hey ! do u have time for dating? . wanna meet you !...another Timepass on line !!!.....
.....lets Meet up yeah !.... I heard about you so much . from Mr/Miss X/Y/Z.....( Cudnt figure out why not then Mr/Miss X/Y/Z herself/himself gives a call !!! ) .....crawling out in the blazing evening sun !! when almost dozing off wid John Grisham .....:(((
..........Nevertheless , Dating another spring board for Networking !!..latest discovery !!.( Indeed toooooooo late to use the new discovery !) ..Sounds cheap ! Mind is devilish , but drawing the legendary lakshman rekha ... ? .hmmmmmmmm uhhh! - offhand Backstroke ! ..

.....AND = a new chapter is shaping up !! looks positive ! yet .......


..........Lastly not the least , for my old friends who are reading the new post , a simple question ......have I changed a bit ?..

........Scope to "Resurrection" is there .but am not dead !!...just trying to awake the Sleeping Child once more !!

......Time is up for the child to become a Toddler to crawl ,infact to RUN ... for Time is too short my next post ! ..

Amore Gelato @ Nite !!!

......! shrill screeching of the car tyres , moment on some smoke , the bonnet smashed , limping bodies from teh hot seat and some nocturnal animals hooting , running to the spot !!!..eyes rolling over the bruished faces !! some ugh(s) more followed !!
./"arre yeah toh woh hai na joh ....rakhi ji ko hotoin pe smooch kiye the "/

/"aabey nahi yaar !. bheja tera satak gaye . uska haamsakal "/

/"are nahi bey ..rakhi ji ... ..kitne paraye mard ki saath ghumti hain .haar sar ekka naam aur pehchaan thodi nah yaad rakhe "/...

..................fuss !. hush in low volume....... till the patrol car drew close ......only to disperse the crowd !!...

.Across the road .neon lite of "Amore gelato" glowing sharply to wade off the pitch darkness of nite !!... shutters down !!. only some noctural figures !! unknown faces .!! unknown history !! unknown MUMBAIYA connection !!!

...... Oomph !!. the chick looks horny !. what the hell she is doing @ this wee hour .. in her skimpy clothes !. Oh !! a pros mite be !!.! No ..... an ex-bar girl on street to satiate her fire on the belly !!...

No man ! she is .. a student ,high profile one... wid millionaire dad and billionaire boyfriend .wanna have some . fun in life ! .watt?? . fun? ....oh !. gotcha .. its ..an 'expensive midadventure' for looking up someone @ teh dead of the nite !.

Eh ?.. shut up !. u guys bitch a lot !. hey no .!we rnt bitching .its gossips !... .oder day some body told ....phew ! a thin line of difference between bitching and gossiping !. tru ? . oh! . chodo yaar !. haame kya.. chalte hain . chikni ki thodi mazaak udate hain !. abbey !....jeb mein paisa hai kya? ... muft me toh . uski . flying kiss bhi nahi milega aur tune soch liye uski . blow pipe !! :))))

........Amore gelato still glowing !!. inside lies . the delicate flavours of .. Tiramissu , Straw berry cheescake ..... coffee wine laden ..creamy ..Italian ice cream.,made from milk and sugar ! Gelato ..Italian word for Frozen !. .. Oh..... then yummy , sweet , creamy varieties , made from fresh fruits are kept well frozen to cater to the tastebuds of the richie rich guy , mumbaiya Page 3 socialite !!!!. and the ones that are bland ,tasteless, mundane . over 'used', made from over rotten fruits on street @ nite .for the taste buds of nocturnal animals kya ? !

Yups !!! . but is there ne difference .betn...fresh ones inside Amaro gelato and teh ones in street vendor@ nite ?. no jus . "sophistication" .. Amaro gelato does . gossiping in socialite circle! ! street wali koolfi does a bitching row with her customer !!!.!......

Hey what drags them to all these shits ! . ha ! good qs ? . Er ?. hey Sussy aka Sushil! bol na to the Tambram ko , .....! hey... dumbo .! its WE !! the MAN !!

watt ? . how we !. they tooooo wanna have fun !. sex !. pleasure ..:))
..........Ancient customs dude !. no qs. plz >!

..phew !!. damn boney lass on the dias !!!.. what she is upto there ? . PPT to the client !..... haha !we WILL clinch the deal !.send the chick wid the PPT straight to the client !!. :))))
..shut up man ! an MBA she is .!! phew ?. oh that stands Married But Available . ...isnt !> married ??.. shit ! man! another gone !..!..::))) HR lady seems... insecured ! on her recruiting spree !..... hey ! these are coporate gosssip right ? eh !!. boardroom talks !.


......Something . doesnt change !!!!...the taste buds seems improving ...no man !. Amore gelato .. is improving . their flavours !. oh !. but it remains.. an ice cream only !...juicy , yummy and mouth watering ....only !.


........ hey ehy !!! swear wont take ne more scoop of the famed brand ..... !!!
wat ? y ? ... u feeling guilty pangs ?! eh ? hey ! cum on !. donn sound .. sissy ?... what u wanna cover up ?.. ...u r soul cleaning wud gulp up water .....enuf to douse the fire burning in the belly of these numerous . street wali !......

eh ? hey tell me ! .howz the better-off women folks react to their . lesser mortals fellow !!.......aur kya !! NUMBNESS of mind !!..issue is gossipy ,juicy like strawberry one from Amore Gelato .to them !..

.. yo baby !. looks like .... naked truth is more than skin deep !!!......socialilte colloqium . to talk sex , having negative publicity , controversy laden fame , talking fashion , movies .......is what the fairer sex is more indulging in party circle , its those . jhola carrying ARTy typos sisters only talk ... all these rubbish moral stuff !.

......phew !. the naked body there fore needs . cloth to b in social jungle !! . where u wud get that man !> LFW , haute couture in fashion circle . hasnt yet come nething such ...infact they don have enuf clothes to cover up their boney , skinny ,lanky models on ramp !. oder day ..sudden. fall off of super model lothes on ramp show drew kaafi furore !!...infact drew...thunderous & outstanding ovation .... for managing to walk smart even the nipples are bare bfore the audience !!! . great performance indeed !... ppl even say ...foul play !...so where wud they find the clothes.... ? no where !!.
.ITS JUS INSIDE UR BODY , DEEP BENEATH YOUR SKIN ,DORMANT IN YOUR SUBCONSCIOUS MIND ..LIKE a Sleeping Child .who is lulled to sleep whenever there is tear off between u and ur 'society'...!!

Ambiguous ??.. Unclear , confused I am !.

More complex is the need that propels , motivation that drives .....some say its atrocity @ of creamy layer of social strata .........oders say it has been made sophisticated for the hapless not-so-pampered versions on street !. ..oder say ..its best to FORGET & draw the curtain off as not to disturb the Sleeping Child .....in its slumber ..oderwise ....... the invading sunlight would ...make the glowing neon 'Amore gelato' pale in daylight !


DISCLAIMER : Words/ideas expressed here are personal only , not intended for another negative/positive publicity campaign , not to hurt any body's sentiment !!!!

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Forlone Love !!

After a while you learn the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul and you learn
that love doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't always mean security.

And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises,
and you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead,
with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child.

And you learn to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans
and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.

After a while you learn that even sunshine burns
if you get too much, so you plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure,
you really are strong, you really do have worth,
and you learn and you learn.
With every goodbye, you learn.

Non sense !

.....voila !! to blogging !..... moi first attempt !!.......hoards to blah about !...cudnt figure out ........what 2 drop ! what to muse around.....jus a brief me ........

....... Drafted the above lines ..... on sunday evening ...monday morning ..... got screwed .......in accessing the account !. stupid , dumbo I am .!!........... lost the link ........


yeah ! am teh 'missing link'........ to past , present and future !!!!
Oh ! yeah !.... past is history ,
future is itself a mystery
and present ....... ???????????? its like kicking myself to live care free ........

nothing sounds sense !!!.... am teh no- nonsense !!!....... what clicked 2 create a blog !!!... donno know ....a complete (in)sanity ?????????? ... no and yes !!!......

.......... a gushing stream , that leaves no stains .... indelible .........,
that is crystal clear !! ....... u can look ur face ( re moiur !!! . oh really . nope ...........ur inner being ....) ...........Life is beautiful , when mind is beautiful .... and like a stream which .. dances over the ....rocks , sparkles under the sun like crystal .......and oh !!! u can c ur inner self !!!.. ....

.......U need food for ur soul !!... trash ! rubbish ! .. fuck ! . shit !- yeah thats it !. ..........despise ....sneer .... ignore ......... but cannt b ........ovlibious !! cannt be .. (in) dispensabe !. .

Am i sounding sense !!. :))))) No & Yea !!..

.............................................. sleeping child 's mind it is !!.... ...